Wednesday, December 7, 2011

New Technologies

                I thoroughly enjoyed this online class this semester.  Online learning is so different from the classroom.  I think making the decision between online and in class session depends on the person and their learning style.  If you are self-motivated and can easily understand instruction, online learning is a great opportunity.  With an online English class I think it was nice that accessing our assignments was easy.  In writing our blogs, journals, and papers, it was a different way our class could communicate with each other and give our advice through peer posts.  There were many new aspects of technology that I have not used before.  One of the things I used the most this semester was Blogger.com.  

I have never done a blog before, so I didn’t know what to expect.  When you first sign up for Blogger it takes you step by step to set up you blog page.  After getting used to it, it was fairly simple.  We used this for everything from class discussions to posting essays and hoping for good critical feedback.  It was nice to have all the assignments on a blog and to read feedback for improvement.  

One of the most interesting new technologies that I used this year was Glogster.  I have never heard of it until this Fall.  You can be as creative as you want to make a poster and put whatever facts you want on it.  I didn’t use it until the end, but wish I would have here and there throughout.  This poster makes putting information together fun and interesting to read.  I think that I can use Glogster in the future for many things.  First of all, being in college, if I have any assignments that I am encouraged to be creative with, I would love to use Glogster to bring in my points.  Since I am working towards my Elementary Education Certificate, I could use this to put my ideas on an electronic poster before I transfer it into reality.  As an Elementary teacher, I know I will be putting together creative activities and I know that Glogster can help me to see what my project will look like before I even do it.  Online learning can be fun and useful and I sure enjoyed it this semester!
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Thursday, December 1, 2011

Analyzing a Passage

Learning

English class has been a great growing experience for me.  In choosing to write I generally choose to write about something that interests me.  I believe that it is a challenge to have an assignment that you may not have the most interest in.  For instance, in this class most of the writing has been based on monsters as well as fictional creatures.  Now, for me this is far from a subject I would choose to write on and this made it a challenge for me.  Even though it was stretching me, this is what should happen in an English class.  I should be pulled out of my comfort zone and have to accomplish something I wouldn’t normally do.  I believe this helps a person grow.
            I am going to school for Elementary Education Certification, and English is the cornerstone of teaching elementary students.  If a student fails to understand English they will not be able to make it through school.  Although it seemed like such simple assignments, I thoroughly enjoyed the simple refreshers on commas, apostrophes, and citations.  Although we all learned this years ago, it is nice to look at it again.  When you are out of practice you tend to forget.  I believe that many of the things that we have been over in this class will be very helpful, not just for my career, but as I continue through college.  Whether it be English classes or a History class, my teachers will still expect me to have good writing skills.
I think that analyzing a text is one of the biggest things I am taking away from this class.  I have learned to look beyond what my own mind sees and try to step in someone else’s shoes.  In my own world I can interpret however I want to, but to really understand what a writer is saying, I sometimes have to step elsewhere and analyze.  What has the writer went through recently that may affect this writing?  I believe that I have grown a lot in this area.
I have thoroughly enjoyed this class and I am glad to take away what I can to further my career.  English is the cornerstone of learning and I want to walk away with as much knowledge as I can.         

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Zombies

Zombies… Dead creatures… The undead… Resurrection… Reality?..  Fantasy?...

There is good and evil.  There are angels and demons.  There is a spiritual world.  How many of us are aware of our surroundings?  I believe that “Zombie” is just another word for a demon.  Demonic forces can possess a person and take control of their mind.  Does this sound familiar?  I believe that the pure evil that attacks this world is a demonic force.  These terrorists that take the lives of innocent people are under demonic oppression.  When stories tell of zombies eating brains, I believe that this too comes back to demonic possession when a demon tells the brain what to do.  This all comes together.  The terrorists that allow the training and teaching they receive to imbed in their hearts come to allow Satan to control them.  What about these mom’s that have killed their children.  At some point will they be shocked at what they really did?  The very thought that crept into their mind was not pushed away and therefore grew to complete possession.  Hitler killed many innocent people.  I believe that Satan put the idea in his mind that some people were worth much less.  From there I believe that Hitler allowed this control to continue to where he ended up taking his own life.  Was he so overwhelmed by the possession he allowed Satan, that this would cause him to take his own life?  I believe that Zombies are just a depiction of demons and demon control.  They have come to be a part of stories and movies, but they are real.  In the Bible, there are many historical events that depict the demonic possession of a person and even animals.  In Matthew 8:28-34 you will find a story of men that were under demonic possession.  When Jesus came walking up, the demons pleaded with him asking that if he cast them out, that they may possess this heard of pigs nearby.  Jesus did as they asked, but when they possessed the pigs, the pigs ran off a cliff and drowned in the sea.  See it how you may but to me zombies are real.  They have been elaborated on within books, television, movies, and magazines, making zombies seem just scary creatures that we hear most about during Halloween.  Zombies are just commercialized Demons.


Friday, November 11, 2011

Final Project


Flesh and Blood
            Vampires have been a part of legends for many years.  They have been depicted as blood thirsty creatures with fangs.  They walk around only at night for the sun is their enemy.  Do we really know where the idea of vampires came from or why they were created?  Is it just our imagination that gets to us or are they real?  With the popularity that vampires have received in the past few years, I believe there is much more to look at.  From books and television to movies and toys, vampires are everywhere.  They have struck a cord in us all, from our imagination to the smallest details.  What makes us want more?  What do they represent in our own lives?  Vampires are a depiction of our “flesh” nature expressing selfishness, destruction, and death.  What I mean from flesh is the carnal nature that we live in.
            With a heart and soul we have compassion and love burrowed deep within.  We can express forgiveness and have the ability to be forgiven.  Without this our flesh could care less.  If we allow our carnal nature to take over we become careless, selfish, and destructive.  If we don’t have to worry about any ones feelings we are set to go and only have to worry about ourselves. 
            “In popular legend, a bloodsucking creature that rises from its burial place at night, sometimes in the form of a bat, to drink the blood of humans”  ("vampire." Britannica Concise
Encyclopedia).  A vampire “lives” only to drink human blood.  Why?  From this description they have no purpose in life.  If they have no purpose, than why be here on earth?  In comparing this to life, there is so much more to it.  This portrays the selfishness of life.  In the heart and soul there is a passion for life, more meaning than that to only think of oneself.  We have the ability to touch a life around us with compassion.  When we allow our flesh to rule our lives selfishness enters.
            Selfishness can burrow its way deep into the body.  It can smother your heart and feelings to where nothing matters to one anymore but itself.  In the dictionary selfishness is described as “devoted to or caring only for oneself; concerned primarily with one's own interests, benefits, welfare, etc., regardless of others.” (Dictionary.com)  Vampires are blood thirsty creatures who care to feed themselves, regardless of the life they are taking.  They don’t stop to ask if the victim has children or a good job.  They eat to live.  Our own carnal nature will stop at nothing to be able to “feed” itself.  Regardless of the people surrounding, the flesh will do what it feels to do.  What will make me feel better?  Unless the heart overcomes the flesh it can be so selfish and destroy the things and people around you.  In the movie Twilight, there is a family of vampires.  This family is very different though.  They do their best to try and not kill humans for blood.  Bella the human girlfriend comes over for dinner to meet Edward’s parents.  Dr. Carlisle Cullen says to Bella, “Sorry, Jasper's our newest vegetarian. It's still a little difficult for him” (Twilight 2008).  In this part of the movie, Jasper can’t hold back and tries to attack Bella.  This is a perfect depiction of a war against the flesh and the soul.  The rest of the family has allowed their heart and soul to overcome the flesh’s desires.  Jasper has not been at it as long and is struggling with it.  He allows his flesh to do the leading.  It may take time and practice to think of others above oneself, but it can be accomplished.  This is an everyday experience as a human.  We wake up with a choice every morning.  Are we going to allow our flesh to run our lives or our heart?
            If the flesh is allowed to control our lives destruction follows.  Vampires depict this by the death in nature of the humans around them.  If we allow our lives to be so selfish we destroy the relationships around us.  A researcher spent some time with people who claimed to be vampires.  These vampires have formed a community and live practically normal lives.  In this article, Dawn Perlmutter claims that, “Vampirism, the most recent manifestation of the occult, has led to many crimes, ranging from vandalism to murder” (Laycock 8).  This expresses the destruction and complete sorrow of our lives.  The friends and loved ones that we keep close is what keeps life going.  Loneliness dissipates as the love of our families draws closer.  We can express the intimate details and confide in the ones closest to us.  There is a freedom to express our feelings without fear of judgment.  Although we have all this in the ones we love the most, if we allow our flesh to take over it can destroy the ties we have.  Destruction is the total tearing down of the relationships around us.  Loved ones are here to support us when we feel wavering, to love us when we feel weak, and to encourage us when we need our spirits lifted.  When the flesh controls it erases all these memories of what others have selflessly done for us.
            After we allow selfishness to nest in our lives and destruction has destroyed the relationships around us, death comes in like a flood.  In the movie Twilight Bella has been bitten by another vampire and the poison is going to kill her.  In an attempt to save her life Edward begins to suck her blood to get the venom out.  Dr. Cullen says to Edward, “Edward, stop.  Her blood is clean.  You're killing her.  Stop.  Find the will” (Twilight 2008).  In this particular section it depicts the strong desires of the will of flesh against the soul.  Edward would do
anything to protect his precious woman, but his flesh gets in the way desiring to continue to suck her blood.  When the Doctor tells Edward to find his will, Edward struggles, but finds it.  This is depicting allowing the heart or will to be in control of life itself.
            Early in October of this year there was a story in the news about vampires that attempted to get blood from a body by stabbing a man.  “Police say the victim, 25-year-old Robert Maley, was stabbed after refusing to let his roommates suck his blood” (Jagneaux ).  The vampire, Aaron Homer, told the officers that he had become enraged and stabbed the victim.  What one would go through to get what they want.  This is because of fleshly desires.  They have allowed themselves to put aside every feeling from their own heart and soul to satisfy the flesh.  Death and destruction over shadow all reason.  If there wouldn’t have been people around this man, I really do not know if he would have stopped.  His desire for blood mixed with his rage and anger would have lead him to do what maybe at one time he would conceive unthinkable.  The death in this sense is of our heart and soul.  When we allow selfishness and destruction to root in our hearts, death comes and covers the soul, taking out any feeling of life at all. 
            The death that a vampire causes may be physical, but the death we have is personal, spiritual, and emotional.  We may walk around with our hearts and lives depicting our selfish desires.  There is no excitement anymore, only the desire to see results for our own good.  The flesh will lead us to this death and we will not even be able to stop and realize.  The people on the outside will be able to see what has happened, but we will be blinded thinking that we have all that we could ever want. 
            Just a little bit at a time- a small taste of cake, meanwhile we are on a diet.  I’m just going to have one bite of that delicious double chocolate fudge… okay, maybe just a little more.  Soon after we look at the plate and the whole piece of cake just disappeared.  This is how the soul is completely destroyed.  Allowing the flesh to have just a little bit of control seems harmless.  Slowly it is allowed a little bit more until it is too late.  At that point is when it is hardest to realize what is wrong.       
            Vampires through legend, fictional characters, and ones that claim they are now, have all shown one thing in common;  the desire for human blood.  Just as a delicious piece of cake to us, the succulent nectar is something worth killing for.  Nothing will be able to stand in the way to achieve the one thing they want most.
            Selfishness- something that one would want so bad for their own good, regardless of the people or relationships around them.  Blood- a strong, selfish, and thirsting desire that one would destroy for.  Destruction- caused by selfishness leading to the breakdown of the loved-ones that desire only the best for your own wellbeing.  Death- a personal, spiritual, and emotional dying of the world around us, caused by the selfishness burrowed in a life.  Death- depicted by vampires as a physical death caused by a selfish desire for blood.
            From Twilight and Dracula to the real life stories and legends, Vampires depict the flesh in our lives.  Allowing the carnal nature to take over and have its way, giving no concern for anything or anyone around. 
Works Cited-
Jagneaux, Jim. "Arizona 'Vampires' arrested after stabbing roommate for blood." Arizona Family 3TV. 10/10/2011. Web. 3 Nov. 2011. .
Laycock, Joseph. "Real Vampires as an Identity Group: Analyzing Causes and Effects of an Introspective Survey by the Vampire Community." Nova Religion 14.1 (2010): 4,4-23. ProQuest Research Library. Web. 2 Nov. 2011.
"selfish." Dictionary.com Unabridged. Random House, Inc. 02 Nov. 2011. 
Twilight.  Dir.  Catherine Hardwicke.  Summit Distribution,  2008.  DVD.
"vampire." Britannica Concise Encyclopedia. Chicago: Encyclopaedia Britannica, 2009. Credo Reference. Web. 03 November 2011.    

Friday, November 4, 2011

Bibliography

Laycock, Joseph. "Real Vampires as an Identity Group: Analyzing Causes and Effects of an Introspective Survey by the Vampire Community." Nova Religio 14.1 (2010): 4,4-23. ProQuest Research Library. Web. 2 Nov. 2011.
I will be using this passage to conduct some of my research on vampires.  This passage takes you on a journey with the writer as he explores the world of vampires.  These people who believe they truly are vampires have created a group and live as a community.  Although a vampire in our minds would be an outcast these people live somewhat normal lives.  The writer writes about the everyday life of a vampire and how they cope with judgment.  I am hoping that this passage will help me portray the today perspective on vampires.  This is the here and now of my paper and it is very useful with great information.

Twilight.  Dir.  Catherine Hardwicke.  Summit Distribution,  2008.  DVD.
I will be using the book as well as the movie.  This movie portrays the life of a vampire family in the twenty first century.  Although this is fiction I believe that it is a great piece to bring my theory together.  This movie has a lot of fanciful and imaginative perspectives of a vampire and it gives a different spin on what I would like to convey.  It brings together the legend and its pieces as well as new and inventive theories.  I believe this only makes my paper stronger by having the past, present, and fictional piece to put my theory together.      

"vampire." Britannica Concise Encyclopedia. Chicago: Encyclopaedia Britannica, 2009. Credo Reference. Web. 03 November 2011.
The encyclopedia has vampire listed under certain religions as well.  This is quite interesting.  It gives a background of the legend of the vampire and details of what people perceived of it.  The encyclopedia lists the common happenings, where most stories came from, what a physical appearance of a vampire would be, as well as where they came from.  This is all based on legend but this will be strong in my paper.  I am hoping that this will help my paper because of its information on the origination of vampires.  If I am going to write a good paper I should start by looking at the history of my subject.       

Friday, October 28, 2011

Final Project

I chose to do my essay based on option #1.  I chose this option because monsters and creatures do not excite me.  I know that if I am going to be able to write a good paper I will have to write about something that interests me.  I am planning on reading some of Karen Kingsbury’s novels.  I just finished one and I have read a few of her books in the past and she is a wonderful writer.  I am hoping to be able to dive in to her mind and explore what her writings mean.  Where are these stories coming from?  Why is she trying to write about this particular subject?  I will be searching Karen Kingsbury and her life.  What may have happened in her life that affected her writing?  In order to successfully conduct research on Karen Kingsbury I will be searching through the Library data base.  I will probably use Literature Online (LION) and Literature Criticism Online (LCO) to search my author.  I am also going to try to find an autobiography on Kingsbury as well.  I am hoping that through research and her readings that I will be able to write a successful paper.         

Friday, October 21, 2011

Mid-Term Letter

692 South Azure Drive
Camp Verde, AZ 86322

October 20th, 2011

Ms. Laura Cline
English 102, Yavapai College
601 Black Hills Drive
Clarkdale, AZ 86324

Dear Ms. Cline,
I am very excited to be able to take this class with you.  So far I have really enjoyed our assignments and they have all been learning experiences.  I am writing this letter to explain to you where I’m at in your class.
I have really faced some challenges in this class, but I am also grateful to be stretched.  I should not limit myself and this class has helped me discover that I am capable to achieve many things.  One of my biggest challenges has been finding an analysis that is argumentative.  When I read someone’s work I analyze it, but usually I see what everyone else would see.  Although I have found this a challenge I feel that I have improved at being able to step back and look deeper and find a deeper meaning.
The readings that we have been going through in class have been interesting.  At first I was trying to figure out why we would be specifically reading Frankenstein.  Most of us have seen the movie and some of us have read the book.  As we read through it though there is so much more that has been overlooked.  We may have seen the movie, but I never thought of there being a meaning behind it.  There is so much passion and meaning behind this book.  It really makes me stop and cherish the friends and family I have, and not take them for granted.  
Creative writing is right down my alley, so literary analysis is so different.  It is a challenging way to write about a particular passage.  You can’t just simply summarize the story and tell what you thought of it, you actually have to get deep into it.  You have to step out of your own mind and think to yourself what the author is portraying.  I am also taking journalism and that is also more of summarizing than anything else.  You may have to step into the stories shoes, but you are writing not from someone else’s article, but your own mind and ideas.
My goals for this last half of the semester is to not be afraid of writing a literary analysis.  I tend to get so stressed.  Is this analysis silly or ridiculous?  What are others going to think about my subject I chose to focus on?  I want to improve my writing of an analysis.  I want it to appeal to people.  If what I am writing about is not very interesting, it is my job to make it appealing.    
Thank you so much, for all your time and effort you have put into this class.  I know we as students sometimes think we have it hard, but I know you also have to work around the clock, at home, and probably weekends to be able to help us students.  So, thank you for all you do!
Sincerely,



Reanna Byrd
Student, Yavapai College

Friday, October 14, 2011

Frankenstein

Reanna Byrd
Cline
English 102
12 October 2011
Frankenstein

            The book “Frankenstein” can have many different meanings behind it.  Within the readers mind they may interpret it in any way they wish to.  This book leaves the meaning very open and imaginable.  There is mystery, drama, suspense, and even romance, all tied up in this book.  What was the author thinking and longing to portray?  In my own mind, this book opened up the world of relationships- spouses, siblings, and especially parent - child relationships.  The author portrays the many different stages in a relationship from the very beginning, to disagreements, to having an unconditional love.
            From the very start of the book a relationship is portrayed between siblings.  There is a love like none ever known unless you have a sibling.  Shelley writes of this love as if she completely understands the importance of having this relationship.  One of the characters writes to his sister, “I love you very tenderly.  Remember me with affection, should you never hear from me again” (Shelley 12).  This makes me wonder if Shelley was expressing a relationship with a close friend or sibling.  The love exudes through the words that are written.  Shelley knew what kind of love she was talking about- a love that can only come from the heart and is so pure.  In reading her descriptions I know she has expressed this kind of love or maybe she wishes she could have, but was not fast enough.  I saw in reading Ellen Moers analysis that there could have been more meaning behind the sibling relationship.  “Mary’s half-sister, committed suicide…” (Moers 221).  We see here, that there is a relationship that has really stirred up feelings whether hurt, anger, or pure sorrow.   
            Shelley also portrays a relationship between the main character, Victor, and his mother.  The character is nurturing, loving, and affectionate, just as you would depict the perfect mother.  Death takes her away from the natural world and it is very upsetting for the family.  Through death her depiction stays true, “She died calmly; and her countenance expressed affection even in death”(Shelley 25). Shelley surely must have felt a loss in her heart- one only a mother and child could experience.  She has really felt the lonesome pain of death.  In Ellen Moers analysis she found a journal entry that simply said ‘“Find my baby dead. A miserable day”’(Moers 221).  A love and connection between mother and child is unexplainable.  The author is showing the relationship, and that this maybe one of the strongest relationships anyone could ever have.  The
very bond of having a small baby developing and growing inside of you is one no one else will ever experience with your child.  There is a strong tie that makes this relationship mean so much more.  Shelley is building up the story and her meaning by laying out the foundation of the various relationships throughout the book.
              Victor is so absorbed in his relationships.  Shelley paints a picture of a man that truly values the good relationships in his life.  Elizabeth is a friend from childhood that becomes so much more to him than a friend.  He loves her with a love close to how he loved his mother, but nothing could ever be quite the same.  Through Shelley’s writing you can see that at any moment you many encounter a completely new relationship with someone.  Whether you may have known someone from the past or if you have met someone for the first time, a relationship develops from acquaintance, to friend, and even further if desired.  Victor’s friend Henry and him, have a different kind of a relationship.  It is not just a friendship but more of a brotherly relationship.  They are overjoyed to see each other but Henry is also concerned for Victor, showing him true, relentless love.  The dynamic between the two of them would depict a siblings love just as the man writing letters to his sister at the beginning of the book.  “She provides an unusual thickening of the background of the tale with familial fact and fantasy…” (Moers 224).
            Shelley writes of the main character creating life.  In her own life she ends up having children although most of them die.  There is so much sorrow and it is portrayed through her writings.  As she writes of this monster that is created, Victor brings him to life, but all of a sudden sees reality and becomes frightened.  I wonder if this is how Shelley felt when she was pregnant.  Her body amazingly created life.  Just like most mothers, she may have been overwhelmed at first with thoughts of confusion.  With the death of her babies soon after, did this frighten her more?  She lost all but one of her children.  Did she feel that there was an underlying cause of the death of her babies?  When you are pregnant, from the very moment of implantation, a relationship is started.  Were the events of her pregnancies and the death of  many of her babies causing these feelings about life and death to become so distorted?  “Death and birth were thus as hideously mixed in the life of Mary Shelley as in Frankenstein’s ‘“workshop of filthy creation”’ (Moers 221).
            Death begins to plague the main character.  His brother was brutally murdered and Victor fears that it could have been the monster he created that killed him.  Victor blames himself for what has happened.  Was Shelley blaming herself for the death of her babies?  Is there something more she could have done?  The pain she was going through probably brought up many questions.  All this comes back to her book being about relationships and one in particular, parent-child relationships.  “But more than mundane is Mary Shelley’s concern with the emotions surrounding the parent-child and child-parent relationships”(Moers 224). Victor was somewhat a parent and even the mother in some aspects.  He had created this creature just as a mother’s body creates a baby.  From every skin cell to every hair, Victor, felt and saw the
progress of growth and completion in his creation.  Victor then abandons this creature, just as many children are handled.  He later feels the responsibility of the deaths around him because of this.   
            Justine is put to death for the murder of Victors brother- though thought innocent.  Victor now feels the pain from his brother’s and Justine (a close family friend’s) death.  He even contemplates suicide.  Shelley must have been at her end here.  Was she so lost, that taking her own life would make things better?  Shelley wrote this book as an outing, expressing her thoughts and feelings in a fictional way. 
            Shelley tells of Victor meeting his creation.  The monster shares of how unwelcome he is in society.  The life that Shelley lived was a hard one and she knew what it felt like to be different.  Shelley’s father insisted that she follow her father’s liberal theories.  She was expected to achieve more.  She would have to feel the pressure to fit in.  Shelley’s feelings were completely open as she was writing about the monster and his desire for someone to love him for who he is.  She was striving to have a relationship with anyone who would accept her.  She must have felt that she was constantly being measured up but never loved.  Why couldn’t her father just enjoy who she is as an individual instead of expecting more from her?  When she got pregnant, with a married man’s child, you can only imagine how the rest of the world looked at her.  Judgmental eyes probably made the way through the couple’s seemingly unbreakable love.
            The monster begins to realize how different he is than anyone else.  He cannot speak the language, he looks unpleasing to the eyes, and he has no companionship.  Shelley seemed to be speaking about yet again relationships.  Perhaps she was so lonely and the effects of her tragic life, she began to see how empty she was.  Mary lost her mom when she was only  days old.  Her father, though she loved him very much, had high standards for her and she really did not care for her step mother.  Shelley lost her step-sister through suicide as well.  She married a man she loved but her father disapproved.  They had four children and out of the four only one survived.  If anyone had a life like this they would have a hard time coping.  Shelley cherished the relationships she had.  She desired only to be accepted and love.
            In a conversation that Frankenstein’s creature has with him, he asks Victor to make him a mate that he can share life with.  Shelley sees the importance of companionship and how relationships impact our lives.  With the sorrow that she has had in her life she sees how a mate would be great to have around.  A spouse is someone you share everything with.  Your dreams, your passions, your hardships a spouse is someone who hears it all.  How could you live without a person to be able to confide in.  There is an emptiness inside, and through the characters she expresses this.  A longing for a mate and children may seem like it would fill the emptiness, but will it? 
            Victor’s precious Elizabeth is his joy.  Through everything, even the sorrow, he keeps his heart focused on Elizabeth and the hope that they will marry.  There is nothing more he wants in life than to be with his love.  Shelley shows yet again that in love the emptiness disappears.  She speaks as if this love is pure and true.  The day of their wedding, after they settle in for the night, Victor finds his beautiful bride dead.  The pain Shelley portrayed in this part of the book was surreal.  She must have felt the sting of death in her own life to be able to convey this in such a way.  Come to find out, only a few years after the book, Mary Shelley herself lost her husband.  How would she cope with this?  A loss so personal as a spouse would be hard to deal with and in her book she shows the grief Victor went through.   
            Victor’s precious friend Henry is found dead and Victor is accused of the murder.  Through all the things that happened in Shelley’s life, we know that she struggled with pressure to do the best and achieve the best she could.  Did she feel somewhat responsible for the people around her.  She lost many family members in physical death, but maybe she also experienced friends and family in an emotional death or depression.  Was Shelley herself suffering from depression?
            The book Frankenstein somewhat reminds me of the book of Job in the Bible.  Victors’ life is a picture of Job.  Job lost everything he had.  He lost his livestock, money, and even his family. There is only one thing Job had and that was God.  Job stayed strong and continued to serve God, even through his trials.  Victor lost many relationships and that was his everything.  Instead of lying in a corner to die, he lived out his days so that he could get revenge- staying strong until the end.  Shelley had a hard life.  She lost many things including her babies, finances, and relationships.  The loved ones in her family that she cared so much about were gone.
            Frankenstein was written and published, but that didn’t mean anything.  The passion that Shelley had for writing meant so much more.  Sitting down and brainstorming was her idea of a wonderful time.  With the trips she took and the life she lived, there was so much that she had to express through her writing.  The pen and paper were her sanctuary.  Shelley didn’t need a vacation, only a pen and paper.  The evenings were spent under candle light.  Mary expresses through her book the relationships she had and some that she wished she had.  She felt the sting of pain, death, and depression, but shared these feelings by putting them in her book.  Shelley died at the young age of fifty-three.  The doctors assumed the cause of death was a brain tumor.  Her son must have been proud of her achievements.
Shelley lived out her life.  She married a man she truly loved, had a wonderful son who she cared for until death, and discovered with him in their travels.  Mary lived to be able to see her son get married to a wonderful woman whom she highly approved of.  The life she lived was as expected, filled with joy, love, and sorrow; and overall- relationships.  “On the first anniversary of Mary Shelley's death, the Shelleys opened her box-desk. Inside they found locks of her dead children's hair, a notebook she had shared with Percy Bysshe Shelley, and a copy of his poem Adonaïs with one page folded round a silk parcel containing some of his ashes and the remains of his heart.”  (Wikipedia.org) 
Works Cited-
Shelley, Mary. Frankenstein, The 1818 Text, Contexts, Nineteenth-century Responses, Modern Criticism. First. New York: W W Norton & Co Inc, 1996. Print.
"Mary Shelley." wikipedia.org. Wikipedia, 09 Oct 2011. Web. 14 Oct 2011. .

Friday, October 7, 2011

Female Gothic: The Monster's Mother!

I read Ellen Moers analysis on the book Frankenstein.  The title of her article is Female Gothic: The Monster’s Mother!  I picked this particular analysis to write on because it is so different from how I read the book.  Ellen Moers begins to explain what Gothic writings where considered in that time period.  I believe that Moers wrote this to portray the relationship between a child and  mother.  During the time Frankenstein was written Shelly had given birth to many babies which most did not survive.  Moers believes that this tragedy played a major roll in the process of writing.  Ellen Moers even says in her article, “She (speaking of Shelly) brought birth to fiction not as realism, but as Gothic fantacy”. (Moers pp 217)
I definitely read Frankenstein differently in some ways. I read it in the aspect that the writer is putting a relationship above everything.  If you don’t have relationships and love, what is there to live for? In some aspects I think my reasoning would be similar to Ellen Moers.  If I would have known Shelly’s past I may have been able to see this, but because I didn’t I focused on the fact that I thought the writer was a person who longed for relationships.  I did sense that the writer had lost someone they loved and were possibly depressed.  In her writing I feel like she is just calling out for a companion and that she lacks a strong relationships in her life.  I think in reading all of the articles I learned many things  and probably will read the book in a different view.  Moers article made me really think from a different perspective.  Although I think I would definitely consider this article for my essay, I think I will read through all of them again and make sure that is what I want to do.



Works Cited: Shelley, Mary Wollstonecraft. Frankenstein: the 1818 Text, Contexts, Nineteenth-century Responses, Modern Criticism. Ed. J. Paul Hunter. First ed. New York: W.W. Norton, 1996. Print. 

Thursday, September 22, 2011

Frankenstein

I began reading Mary Shelley’s book Frankenstein.  From the very beginning of the book I sensed a longing for companionship, love, and compassion.  A selection of the text that stood out to me was in Chapter Four after this project, that Frankenstein had put so much time and effort into, finally became a success.  “I slept indeed, but I was disturbed by the wildest dreams.  I thought I saw Elizabeth, in the bloom of health, walking in the streets of Ingolstadt.  Delighted and surprised, I embraced her; but as I imprinted the first kiss on her lips, they became livid with the hue of death; her features appeared to change, and I thought that I held the corpse of my dead mother in my arms; a shroud enveloped her form, and I saw the grave-worms crawling in the folds of the flannel” (Shelly page 34).  Frankenstein’s character, from the very beginning, desires relationships. He desired a true loving friend who would someday possibly become his wife.  “From the time Elizabeth Lavenza became my playfellow, and, as we grew older, my friend” (Shelly page 19).  He also desired a relationship of a brotherly kind.  “My brothers were considerably younger than myself; but I had a friend in one of my schoolfellows, who compensated for this deficiency” (Shelly page 20).
                With his mother’s passing, he began to cling to Elizabeth.  Frankenstein leaves years later for college and I do believe he became lonesome.  He was away from his family and friends, and missed the relationships he left behind.  He began to pour himself into a project, thought impossible, to create life.  I believe he did this because of his longing for companionship.  So now, to the quote from page thirty-four…  The dreams he was having was about the relationships he missed the most.  His lovely companion Elizabeth, whom he wishes he could see and spend time with, the one who stood by his side in time of need.  Elizabeth, the one he could confide in.  Elizabeth then, turns into his mother’s corpse right in front of his eyes. This right here shows the horrible longing to discover the separation of life and death.  Frankenstein desires to discover the impossible.      
Works Cited
Shelley, Mary Wollstonecraft, and J. J. Paul Hunter. Frankenstein, The 1818 Text, Contexts, Nineteenth-century Responses, Modern Criticism. First. New York: W. W. Norton & Co Inc., 1996. 19,20,34.

Thursday, September 15, 2011

Essay #2

Fariy-tales
            From childhood we dream and discover.  Dreams of being a beautiful princess, a scary dragon, or an undersea adventurer, drift through our minds.  Discovering a volcano in the form of baking soda or walking on the beach when dad puts the sand box next to the pool.  As a child we have it all.  There is no worry or fear.  After all, if anything happens we always have our wonderful fairy god mother who will help us.  We can be who we want to be.  Our imagination can take us anywhere.  Just think, who do we want to be and where do we want to go next…
            The reality-- an alarm clock buzzing in my ears at five o’clock in the morning. I need to get in the shower.  I have to make breakfast.  The kids need a bath.  The dog needs to be walked.  I need to get lunches ready.  Everyone needs to be fed. The kids need to get on the bus.  Finally, I am now ready to go to work.  Life hits fast.  There is no more time for foolish fun and games.  Though we have outgrown the fun and adventures, we can only hope that our children can experience the same.  It is now their turn to dream and discover, just as I did.  Although, sometimes, I just have to play along.
            I read the poem, “Fairy-tale Logic” by A.E. Stallings.  The poem at first glance is about the impossible tasks in the fairy-tale world.  One might read it and say, “Oh, this is a cute poem.”  But what does this poem really mean?  What was the speaker trying to portray?  My thought… this poem is really about reality, sincerity, and conformity.
            The very first line in this poem is, “Fairy-tales are full of impossible tasks:” (Line 1)  Now, this is true and the speaker goes on to give more detail and even shares examples.  I believe this first line is about our lives individually.  If I could rewrite the first line into words, I would say, “Choosing a road and following it is full of impossible tasks.”  The speaker is telling us that whatever path we have chosen, the world is about to put some hurdles in our way.  I’ll explain it this way.  I have personal morals or beliefs, we all do.  The extent and gray areas are completely up to me and God.  A friend shares a popular belief with many people that, you can go out and have fun with a married man behind his wife’s back, as long as you don’t sleep with him.  I don’t believe that this is right, but I am pressured by the majority, therefore making this something I have to deal with.
            The speaker’s voice adds a touch of humor as he goes on, “Select the prince from a row of identical masks.” (Line 4)  Can you picture this?  We are at an elegant ball.  There are women standing around in their gorgeous gowns; people dancing and spinning on a luxurious marble floor.  All of a sudden we see a string of men all dressed so nicely, walk up to the platform and stand there, identical with their masks.  This represents the decisions we have in life.  Although we have decisions, some may look identical.  How will we know if we are choosing right or wrong?  Is this my decision, based on what I know and believe or could this be what everyone else wants me to decide?  Each prince represents a different decision that has been place before us.  Some choices may look the same, but may also have very subtle consequences underneath the mask.
            In the second stanza the voice of the speaker is intent on showing us the reason for this poem.  Within the first line in the second stanza, the speaker says this, “You have to fight magic with magic.” (Line 7)  This is an impossible task.  This is like melting an ice cube by using another ice cube.  Where does this get you?  Nowhere.  As the wands are drawn, one will not prevail over the other.  They must both equally give up or live fighting forever.  When the speaker talks about this, he makes it clear that if we want to win the fight we have to think outside the box.  If I decide what I am going to do by just giving in and living by everyone else’s standards and morals, I did not win.  Inside I will continue to have a longing of what I feel is right and I will have to live with that forever.  As a child if we were playing a game and it was a wizard against a wizard, someone would end up making something up that would beat a wizard.  Picture two chubby little boys in a sand box playing.  They have peanut butter on their faces from lunch and walk shoeless to this big sandbox.  They draw their sticks… Oops, I mean wands and battle for hours.  Finally one says, “I am no longer a wizard Jimmy, I am a WISEard, he is the macho wizard with even more power to destroy you.”   The game then can actually be over and the boys could move on.  This is what the speaker wants us to do.  Move on, don’t let others tell you what is right, do what you know is right.
            “The will to do whatever must be done:” is the second to the last line in the poem.  At this point the speaker is just being straight forward.  Am I just trying to do whatever needs to be done in order to satisfy the people around me?  Maybe I will do whatever it takes to blend in.  Whatever the reason, the speaker’s tone is sincere.  He is heartbroken that we try to figure out what to do and struggle to find our voice and place.  What needs to be done in order for me to find popularity?  What needs to be done in order for me to get this promotion?  What needs to be done in order for me to understand my family?
            The struggle of decisions in this life is hard to balance.  We need to find our own voice out of the many voices that tell us what would be best.  We need to discover our place and know that the decisions we make should be for us, not the people around us.  The speaker in this poem said that we should not conform to make others happy, especially when in our hearts we know what’s right.  We should be sincere about our choices and think realistically about them.   After all, we are the ones that live with our choices every day.                      

Works Cited
Stallings, A.E.  “Fairy-tale Logic.”  Poetryfoundation.org.  Poetry, 2010.  Web.  12 September 2011.  

Saturday, September 10, 2011

Poem Analysis

I read the poem, “Fairy-tale Logic” by A.E. Stallings.  This poem caught my attention because of its meaning and my realist mindset.  The speaker in this poem speaks with sensibility.  In the first line he begins with, “Fairy-tales are full of impossible tasks.”  When I first read this I actually laughed.  It is as if the writer is a comedian writing how preposterous a Fairy-tale is, all dreams and fantasy. 
Within the lines that follow, he expresses how ridiculous tasks are in a Fairy-tale world such as, “Gathering the chin hair of a man eating goat,” or “Tiptoeing up to a dragon where it basks.”  Who would ever brave a goat that would eat a man?  Who would come anywhere near a dragon and put themselves in danger let alone, “Snatch its bone?”  The speaker uses these examples to express the reality of how silly fairy-tales are. 
When the poem reaches the second stanza, the speakers voice changes.  He becomes more serious, as the comedic voice begins to fade.  There is more he wants to express, something with more meaning and depth.   In the first line of the second stanza the speaker says, “You have to fight magic with magic.”  In the previous stanza he gives examples of things that are silly but not impossible.  How would one, “Fight magic with magic?”  This is an inconceivable notion. 
As the speaker approaches the ending I see what he is trying to speak.  In his last couple lines he says, “The will to do whatever must be done: Marry a monster.  Hand over your first born son.”   The speaker is talking about conforming to the world and what everyone wants you to do.  From the time you are young and through adulthood, peer pressure is a continual cycle.  From following the crowd to living up to expectations, we as humans have all been through pressure to keep up with the “Jones’.”
Works Cited
Stallings, A.E.  “Fairy-tale Logic.”  Poetryfoundation.org.  Poetry, 2010.  Web.  9 September 2011.  

This is a great site with devotions and I have a link for February 27th.  One of my favorite Verses, Romans 12:2 "Do not be conformed to this world."

  http://books.google.com/books?id=1P2HIPWfjIIC&pg=RA1-PA27&lpg=RA1-PA27&dq=conforming+to+the+world+joyce+meyer&source=bl&ots=-HlibI0nq8&sig=YNqaWDa7CEOQm1nxK5hfdEv8Z3k&hl=en&ei=Ff5rTrfzGMHmiALw2OC7Dg&sa=X&oi=book_result&ct=result&resnum=2&sqi=2&ved=0CB0Q6AEwAQ#v=onepage&q&f=false



Picture Source:  http://frenchtwiist.wordpress.com/2010/09/17/everything-but-a-fairytale-ending/

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Good Reader


Nabokov quotes in his writing  from the book,  The Norton Reader, An Anthology of Nonfiction that, “The good reader is one who has imagination, memory, a dictionary, and some artistic sense.”  In some ways I do agree with this.  I believe that if you don’t have imagination, you would fail to enjoy a book.  Everyone interprets a writing in a different way and if you don’t have an imagination, how would you enjoy the book? I believe that memory is very important in reading also.  You must be able to process what you have read and remember as you continue with the reading.  As for a dictionary, I know that you would need to know what the words mean.  Say you don’t understand what a word means in a particular part of the selection, you may miss out on the complete idea of the chapter.  Artistic sense is similar to having an imagination.  I believe this is also important in being a good reader.
            I believe that one of the most important characteristics of a good reader is having an imagination and an open mind.  I may read a certain book or article and have a strong opinion  on what I think the underlying message is throughout the reading, while someone else may think completely differently how they read it.  Our minds all think so differently and process things differently.
            I consider myself to be a good reader.  I love when a book is detailed and I love to analyze even the smallest details.  Description is probably my favorite thing about reading.  I try to keep my mind open to what the author is trying to speak.  

Source:  H., Linda, and John C. The Norton reader: an anthology of nonfiction. Eleventh. New York: W W Norton & Co Inc, 2003. 615. Print.